Story of time

Wrinkles on the river surface circle and fade
 As the wind touches the water
In deep affection
A shining milestone on the rich mud road
Silently confirms a way to somewhere..
It is the sole witness of the song of windtrees,
As they bend in union and whisper..
They talk about the story of time
When surroundings are mute
But there ain't no pause
In the heart of the hummingbird
Which steals the nectar
Out of the willing flower from a shy plant..
The wet soil feeds the hungry toads
And the river writes a lullaby
To sing at the night,
For the floating moon
 Under the bright starry sky!..
With a warmth of loyal friendliness
The milestone witnesses the seamless love
Of the river and the moon

And the time flies by..In silence..

You Never Let Go - Matt Redman

	Matt Redman - You Never Let Go .mp3
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Even though I walk through the valley
Of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear

And even when I’m caught in the middle
Of the storms of this life
I won’t turn back, I know You are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming
For the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare

And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We’ll live to know You here on the earth

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

You keep on loving
And You never let go

Singing

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

Yes, I can see a light that is coming
For the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

I can see the light

Yes, I can see a light that is coming
For the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

So strong
So wise
So loving Lord

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

Oh, Lord, You never let go of me

Kiss of wind

It's just the cherry tree
On the river bank,
And your reflection
On the glassy snow line..

This is one more day
And a sprained mind
Wanders into the nothingness.
A slice of  your life,
Flows gently down the stream
But that perfect feeling
Flows backwards,
And erases the shadow
In the depths of your hollow thoughts..

The sigh out of your breath
Captures the sight of a rainbow
You notice then,
It isn't faded!
Lilies on the shore
And their grace
Touched your coldness
To make your heart bloom
To bring back the glitter in your eyes..
You wave back to the kids
On the street
And smile to yourself
Then you know you will  lose yourself
In a moment suspended in time

Feline wisdom :-|

I am an animal lover. I get amused looking at the display of their emotions. I had dogs,cats,chicks ,ducks, rabbits and cows as pets during my childhood ..And now, I love to look at funny pictures of animals on internet as an alternative.While looking at the snap in the post I suddenly remembered one of my special forgotten cat.

Back then, when I was 7 my aunt brought to home a kitten. It was a small grey fur ball with thick black stripes,had gorgeous whiskers and actually resembled a miniature tiger.(NO! It wasn't from japan! :P) So without anticipating anything I christened it "Killer". Ha.. In few weeks we kind of got familiar with it's behaviour and for our surprise it was rude, loud mouthed ( heh,exactly..it was noisier than I ever was !), short tempered ( would roar ), had sharp teeth and also had a very bad habit of clawing wherever it liked and that's exactly - everywhere . ( Like bed sheets, sofa cusions, on my pajamas :-| ) .  Also it used to get violent 'Public Display of Affection' strokes..as in, while playing with me, all of a sudden it would either jump on me and scratch or simply bite. But I loved it and I was proud of myself for I gave the perfect name :-| .Apparently, I was the only member in the family who tolerated the evil kitty and fearing the worse , many a times I hadn't shown to my mom all those scratches on my limbs and occasionally on neck.

One morning I went outdoor ,actualy for bird-watching with my funny yellow kids' binaculars (okay that was obvious) and this little guy chose to follow me. I was more than happy .Actually, sometimes my favorite chick used to accompany me :P Anyway, we hopped for some 100 feet from house and this kitteh jumped on my feet and bit so hard that I couldn't get rid of that just then..It hung there for a while. Then, I managed to kick it like a football in half a minute . Man oh man, I still have the mark of dent on the skin ! And obviously I couldn't hide it from anyone, because my leg was bleeding well, profusely. I had to take an injection too. [Now I wonder may be the cat was Schizophrenic and thought itself a canine or a tiger :D Identity crisis..yess..! I get that sometimes..Who am I? :P ok..I cut it ;)]

 Everybody decided to leave this cat somewhere far away . I was all tears, and was like, can we give him another chance please? Lol I have vague memories of lecturing the cat whole day about good manners..:D But next day my uncle put it in a bag and left it in the woods few kilometres away ..I flooded the house with tear streams. But lo! in 2 days the cat was back home. Guess who was happy? :D

A week passed ,and the cat was surprisingly a better kitty..In it's never seen avatar. My school had reopened so I hardly got any time to interact with the cat as much as I used to and one evening I got the news that Killer is dead : ( *gasp*

Yes, and you know what? It ate rat poison. Well, I didn't consider it as a suicide even then , although,  I was told it happened accidentally and it's totally the cat's fault for, it went on to eat the poisoned cookie put inside the rat trap on the roof! I believed that version of the story for maybe 7 years until when I discovered that it was actualy my late grandma who made the cat to eat it ! She thought it might still harm me or anyone else at home( we had guests including a toddler). My sister let the truth off by mistake and she couldn't look into my eyes for 2 days as I sulked with everyone for a whole week. Then I managed to console myself and forgave my late grandma ,maybe because already there were two loving cats at home and know what, I had made a brilliant decision by keeping their names -  Pinku and chinnu..(very cheesy and non- violent eh ! ) *pats on her own back* :D

So my version of - " Be careful of what you wish for because you never know when it'll come true " is " Be careful about ->  - what you name-when you name and that's about - everything you can name because,er  ofcourse you never know when it'll come true!" : D So peeps choose your pets' names wisely" :D ;)

Weight of thoughts

There are few things in life which are irreplaceable . Strangely, sweet memories often hurt . Even nostalgia makes your heart empty for once. It's been told, a person strives for better as time passes by. But for some aspects,there isn't a better form.. I am trying to figure out what keeps me constantly happy over a period of time. Randomness(?) ,well  perhaps. Then I wonder for a moment..and get the answer as it's the pattern of positive incidents which puts me at ease. When I try to analyze my present state of mind I can't say I am unhappy because I 'm certainly not miserable. If there is a scale for happiness, I can definitely gauge the thorn to a higher level, for I'm content, despite the shortcomings. I read somewhere, one can still be happy with what she has. But I don't really vote for that. Because in that case you never realise what you are experiencing is an illusion. Contradicting myself..am I?

I believe there is a secret life of brain. And sometimes I wonder who am I.. Am I the soul, or the mind,or the heart or that vital energy which is called life? I left the body out, for I know it's not the same as it used to be last year ( erm ) Of course they're connected into a whole and don't exist separately but I just don't understand who speaks for me, or everyone and when? When I breathe ,to whom I do it for or why? Of course there isn't another option but why I do ,what I do..Every little co-ordinated function of my body or an emotion where does it end up? In brain? In my aura? Why do I feel lonely, why do I love, Why do I laugh or cry..I shouldn't be thinking so much about life in a living being but this is amazing..I just want to thank God for who I am because He's brought me so close to Him...I am just a light ray facing the Creator shining for Him..Hope I won't fade out .

To confess, I was almost an aetheist for quite sometime for whatever reasons. I look back and realise how stupid and ungrateful I was. If universe 'happend' by big bang and if it were an event without any stimulation wow how organised of an accident it was and which is still continuing to retain the perfect consequences. If we as human beings the so called superior creatures cant predict next slice of time with what kind of intelligence inanimate bodies act together to keep the life on the surface of earth for millenia.. Why would they do so ..

Thank you God! ..:-)

Aches

Bad head ache and I feel exactly like this  :|

Find your Love

God alone knows what's wrong with my freakin crazy mind.....aye....What does it want?When am excited for a long journey,it makes me sad for leaving things behind....and sometimes,living in one place is intolerable.....I ain't gonna sleep today......ok,I admit,I wont be able to sleep....Now that's some resolution...Not able to express the degree of boredom experienced by Sincos right now.....My math test was a total dynamite....It blew off with a bang....No butterflies flutterin will ruin my holidays.....I've read fashion magazines,the comics and....and... "A JOURNEY TO THE CENTRE OF THE EARTH".....a trillion times......and so far....I've successfully overcame a total 3 minutes of boredom.....My eyes seem to have given a deaf ear towards my mind......They are siding insomnia.....save me.....Vortex n tangent???????It's not peace today....... :'( c'mon Tantex......help me..... -_-.....sorry,Vortex n tangent.....The post is haywire today.... :)

The Peace

Alright, first goes the confession. If I travel anywhere by bus, train or car I make all efforts to get the window seat. Not by waking a stranger up, but if it's my sister who is sitting at a window and not me, then she definitely gets to see my bipolar disorder :-|. Last weekend I travelled to Mysore with her by bus.We had to leave early morning. Well she has the love for the window seating too. So it started as a cold war for she got inside first and there weren't any other seats left. I threatened her, pleaded with puppy dog eyes,squeaked like a mosquito, negotiated, bribed but nothing worked in my favor. The window was completely open and the strong cool breeze was rushing inside , I kind of felt, it mocked me. And to rub it in, sis fell asleep within 5 minutes.. I felt abandoned, left out. Looked at the watch , 5 more hours to reach the destination and I picked the novel from the bag but I was not the one to give up on my jealous gene. I started telling rotten funny stories , she opened her eyes half, turned around and said, "Shut up now, will ya?" Me said, " Alright shoot.. You win..You get the seat, Thank me ". She fumed. So I started reading the novel, after 5 minutes wind started blowing a li'l too strongly and yay sis decided to trade the seats as atmosphere was a bit wet and she caught cold . I jumped to her seat before she completed asking me to shift  for I am someone who doesn't care the mightiest breeze even if my nose falls down. Thus I got to stick my nose out and enjoy the sight of country side without any hindrance.

We had planned to go to a church about 40 miles from Mysore. It's in a village and the scenic beauty of the place is just brilliant . Flashback : I remember hundreds of milky white herons on a small tree near a pond and the tree looked like a giant jasmine plant.The sweet smell of grass while passing by sugarcane fields and turmeric fields..mmm was just delicious..Villagers washing their cattles at the streams..Paddy fields spread across for acres,small houses made of red bricks..colorful butterflies playing with the wind was a wonderful sight. (Hope I justified why I fight for the window seat :P)

After reaching the church spent rest of the afternoon in prayer and meditation..Ate in a small canteen.. Traditional jaggery coffee served there was just unforgettable. Went back to Mysore in the night, we had plans to stay a night there as had some official work on the next day.. Monday morning after finishing work, went to the famous zoo.. I wouldn't wanna write about jungle cats, giraffes, elephants or exotic birds . You can anyway guess how excited I could've been to be at a place like that :P  Saddest part was I hadn't taken my camera and had carried a non camera cell phone with me ( oh yeah )because visiting zoo wasn't a part of the plan. Anyway I enjoyed the 3 km walk better without distractions, though it really did a little harm to my photography loving soul. But it was a perfect , peaceful weekend.

I'm on that next shit now..

Another freakin day dawns...boy..had an exam.....blow me down..don't you dare ask "how'd it go?"..and yet if someone's interested out there,might as well come to me for new looks...."Boy..she's got claws...she almost ripped me apart"...oh wow!You'd be the hot sensation of the crowd....ain't ya lovin it?..nah...I is definetly not... (~_~)....as I try to get outta the trauma,comes my family lookin at me like the ones from "blackhole sun"....boy...like that wasn't enough for freakin me out.....then i say the truth and finish the quota of explanations,the expectancy rates...blah blah...you name it....I talk to sista over phone and I see that I crossed 2 hours......boy am I a freak.....and now comes the most dreaded part....SinCosTan.....that suddenly reminds me that "m on dat next shit now"....gimme a break....anyone out thr????aye vortex and tangent??????Vorgent????????aah.....the peace..... :P

Lotus eater!

Here I am on a Saturday..doing the unthinkable-being in office! That I’d discovered my phone was missing from my bag just minutes before the bus left the bay the previous day did not produce a shred of regret. I could have jumped off the bus at the right minute and saved myself the trouble of coming halfway across the city to pick up my cell phone today. But hey, Que Sera, Sera, had been my thought. Come what may, I was too tired to even consider walking all the way back to my building, which is roughly half a mile from the bay, with a dozen steps, an overpass, a bridge over a pond and an uphill climb thrown in along the way. Variety I was not game for at the end of a long day. Not the second time around at that. The spring well of eternal optimism that I am, I had expected to find myself in the campus at 8 in the morning to be united with my cell phone, finish my business and be back home by 11 at the most. I reckon I’m one of those people who is impervious to learning lessons. Come Saturday, and I don the cleaning lady cap. You don’t mess with the cleanliness freak(Forgive the pun). Cleaning up home and restoring sanity unleashed by a freaky working week took up all morning and managed to reach office only at half past three under a bright merciless sun.

Clearly, I am not deserving of a high-end handset. Me and my no-frills cell phone jell just fine. Does not look like we’re ditching each other any time soon. The last phone I lost was lesson enough, nay, a proof of the fact that it’s always good for me to own a cheap handset given the probability of me losing it. I remember calling the chap and playing Lamb Of God and Nile and Napalm Death at high volume at eleven in the night, in the hopes that he’d be spooked out of his wits and would succumb to the fear of the Devil and its ilk. To no avail. Sigh. Obviously my phone’s new “owner” was a Brave Heart. The company campus looked so much more serene than it ever has. It dawned on me as I walked to my building that I work here; I’m allowed to walk in this part of the world at any time of the day, with just a flash of my card. Wow, that feels good! It also reminded me of the good old days of training when we were mandated to stay on campus. Those long evenings spent beside the amphitheatre sipping on endless cups of iced tea and long chats to folks back home. And that is all the time I _did not_ spend with my class mates. For some strange reason, I have always felt a repulsive force to my classmates, that is proportional to the number of years I have spent with them. This is without exception, in every school I have been to. Why is it that I find happiness only in solitude? Or only with people that I’m very close to and relate to? And not in boisterous “hip” crowds? Am I a freak? Ok, don’t answer that one.

Now, my building is the sleepy hollow that happens to be tucked away in the corner of the campus diagonally opposite and hence farthest from the bus bay. No wonder I did not want to walk all the way yesterday back for my low-end Man Friday. A scour of the entire campus showed that none of the food courts were open and I had to indulge my dessert fantasies elsewhere. It also brought home the fact that other people have a life that they don’t spend in front of the system. The only thing I saw across the campus, tucked away especially in the flora-rich parts was the weekend amateur Shutter bugg-ery. Hmm. Somehow though, lunch or no lunch, I _had_ to have this entry in shades of RG&B and had to stay back for as long as it took. If I die today of an empty stomach, you’ll know I died writing this blog. (Time to go back into the closet, Drama Queen : l) Looking forward to the day when I’m able to get a lappy of my own so I don’t have to stay back unusual hours after work(not that I’m complaining, I quite like it!) and squeeze in my blog posts in the limited time available and without the fear of my lead’s shadow behind me!

Pfff..so sleepy

I wanna dance with shadows
And Sing with bamboos
Maybe I could try to fly with an eagle
And to Shine with corals
How I wish , how I wish to swim with a jelly fish
But erm..
Aw man this is not happening
 Need to sleep, need to sleep ! : |